9.27.2011

gila hot springs, revisited....and....a foreward note on joy

cleansing, peaceful, contemplative, comfort, calm, secure, nurtured, whole.
hot springs everywhere are the womb of our mother earth. clean water warmed by her interior...the heart from deep within. a very intimate and safely vulnerable space.
a much needed time away from the chaos that has been surrounding the minutes of the days passing. i don't understand the capacity that some people have for destruction. the tearing down that can happen within one person, between two people. or three, or four. the anger. the fighting. it's all destructive. why not maintain some sort of peaceful departure? betrayal is hard to overcome. it allows so much insecurity to well up. trust is gone. creating jealousy and suspicion. like a domino effect, one angry reaction after another, knocking the next one over just to get to the next. it is exhausting defending one's deserving of respect. i give up my defenses. i do not want to be right. i do not want to hear why someone else is right. i'd rather put my energy into experiencing joy. and i hope for the same for everyone else.
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here is my joy:

long-flowered four o'clock, mirabilis longiflora
mirabilis, means "wonderful" in latin. the flowers open in the afternoon, not because of the time, but due to the drop in temperatures.  contains over 350 species. mirabilis is a native plant, with the exception of mirabilis JALAPA, with origins from Peru.
native medicinal uses: Native Americans have used Colorado four o’clock (Mirabilis multiflora) for dyes and medicinal properties, both in prehistoric times and modern day. The Navajos boil the flowers to make a light brown or purple color for dying wool. The Hopis used the roots of older plants to make a blood-strengthening tea for pregnant women. Teas were also made to treat colic, eye infections, muscle soreness, body swellings, rheumatism and indigestion. The Acoma and Laguna pueblo tribes dried the leaves for smoking material, and some say the plant has a sedative property (web source: http://extension.usu.edu/rangeplants/htm/four-o-clock/)
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copper globe mallow, narrow leaf globe mallow, yerba del negro, sphaeralcea angustifolia
high in mucilage with extraordinary soothing properties, the mallow leaf can be brewed as a cold infusion for sore throats, or as a refreshing beverage on hot summer days. combines well will cold infused ocotillo flower tea. warm teas used for coughs, upset stomach, diarrhea, constipation, bloody stools, influenza, and externally used as an eyewash. also externally, the soothing properties are beneficially used as a poultice or a powder on sores, snakebites, open wounds, hot swollen places, and arthritics joints. root tea can be taken to sooth broken bones, headaches, internal injuries and bleeding. it is often combined with other plants of soothing properties to make it more palatable. (book source: western medicinal plants and herbs by steven foster and christopher hobbs)
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other pretties to make note: still learning identifications
 wild morning glory
  mealy sage
 
river wading



baths



idiot wind

9.17.2011

night of the harvest moon

there's a little place i found, up a steep hill side, under a barbed wire fence, and on top of a small mountain ridge, where i like to take the dogs. i think it's private property, but no one around here cares about all that. i've been up there before looking for plants, and it's been described as a botanist's paradise. the manzanitas are naked and charred from a fire several years ago. leaving the soil nutrient rich also allowed a high desert undergrowth to flourish. the night of the harvest moon we took a walk to the top, overlooking bisbee.




comrades

9.16.2011

a process

ever since i returned from marathon, empty handed (as far as a cat carrying case is concerned), i've put off cleaning the pillow that ruby used to sleep on. i shoved it in a trash bag to bring back with me, and there it still sits, behind the chair in my room, hidden. there are sweet little black ruby furs all over it, poking out of the corners, and stuck in the weave. it's extreme, i realize. it's like cleaning the house after a lover has moved out. or giving away the personal belongings of a person who has passed over. to seal time with the acceptance that a shift has occurred...that our day to day interactions have to find a new routine...and life is having to adjust to the absence. everything changes. the energy in my immediate, personal atmosphere is altered. it's different, and new. similar to an acquaintance: some familiarity, and a lot of unknown.

yesterday while cleaning up my room i came across the bag with the pillow in it. feeling desperate for ruby affection, i opened the bag, only revealing a small portion of the top of the pillow, and plucked several downy hairs into a precious tuft. i remembered how hairy my bed and pillows would get, but i never minded brushing it off, especially if it meant ruby was looking over me at night when i was asleep and weak to the outside world.
i held that little tuft and as clear as day i recalled the sound of her lyrical meow. blessed with black cat powers i put the tuft in my medicine pouch to resonate, sealed with a kiss.

as of late, i've been really needing some unabashedly sincere, strong and uplifting energy to come my way. daydreams and ruby have in the past been my remedy for a broken heart. left with only my daydreams, i wonder what opportunities and blessings will come my way. and when this feeling of vulnerability will go away. but for now, i look forward to finding peace.

the peace that this life is only once.
that this life is precious and potentially full of wonders.
and that it's not over yet.