the big question

what to do? what to do? what to do?

it makes me SICK to think that yet again this year i won't be going to a yoga program. and it's not totally out of the picture, but just a really really slim chance.

the serious decision i'm looking at right now is "what to do with the coffee shop?" my options are, 1) closing down and thinking about how this whole past year was kind-of sort-of wasted if i don't continue it in some way, and just moving to austin, getting an hourly job, saving saving saving, and hoping hoping hoping i can make it to sedona in the fall. 2) converting it into a caffeine and carb craver's dream on wheels, silver bullet style, and moving it to.....3) Austin, or....4) whichever festival/carnival/venue presents an interesting and promising crowd of addicts.

Dear Universe,
i've already come to terms with the possibility of not seeing sedona this year. so the biggest thing i'm facing right now is the coffee shop. how does one make a decision like this?? there are no signs pointing in any direction. all i want at this point in my life is a mini rv packed with two dogs and one cat and some gas money to get me to silver city, new mexico where i can happily work for trade on a farm for a few months, and some how...magically....acquire $3000 for yoga, and in september study with the gurus.

is that asking too much?

i'm 30. i have the same drive and ambition as i did at 15, except time isn't doing me any favors.

with my horizons set to the desired course i'd be the happiest little peppercorn on the bush.
love,
chloe